In the past, I have had interesting experiences with religion and faith. Although I was brought up in a seemingly Catholic household, at about the age of 11 or 12 I discovered that my parents actually didn’t identify with the church. I have a basic understanding of the bible and common religious practices, but my spirituality has remained mostly dormant since my preteen years.
Still, I’ve had quite an extensive exposure to many of our world’s religions – my first childhood friend is Mormon, my aunt married into a Jewish family, I’ve dated a Buddhist, and my roommate in college practiced Hinduism. My life has been enriched by all of these people and their individual belief systems, but I’ve also found myself questioning where I belong, if not within any of these denominations.
Perhaps my view on religion (as an institution) is best discussed in a different post, especially since I cannot currently identify as agnostic, atheist, or anything else for that matter. However, that doesn’t mean that I don’t crave a deeper connection with the world around me and the phenomena that created us. After all, I do not have an explanation for the awe-inspiring beauty of nature, or the weightlessness of being in love.
I took up meditation in search of the answers to existential questions, but the practice has actually brought me peace in not knowing. I meditate about 10-20 minutes a day while practicing steady, deep breathing. Lately, I have been using an app called Happify, which provides meditation prompts depending on your self-identified areas of improvement. Meditation is a soothing yet contemplative way to reflect on the day in a way that is entirely personal. I imagine that it is a similar experience to prayer. With some practice, meditation can be a healing experience. I look forward to sharing more of my journey to spiritual development – it is an ongoing process!